I want to tell you a little about the life you've been dying to live; the one you're absolutely convinced that you're ready for. I'm here to tell you that things won't go exactly how you've planned them. Don't get me wrong, life's not too bad, but there are some distinct differences in your imagination and my reality.
For one thing, you won't be moving out of state for college; but you probably already knew that one, there way no way mom was going to pay for that. You'll visit Athens, and decide that you don't want to go to UGA either. You'll have the choice between Georgia College and Valdosta and you'll choose Valdosta for the gym. Although later in college, you'll rarely use the gym and wish you'd gone to GCSU.
But don't worry, you'll make wonderful friends while in Valdosta. One of the first will be your roommate. You may be weary of her at first, but you two have more in common than you think, give her a chance. And those two girls that live across the hall from you, they'll become some of your best friends as well.
Now let's talk about your major; you should be thankful your mom didn't let you major in dance, suck it up and move past it. This business management major won't last long, you'll soon discover your love for mass media. But perhaps you should take a look into the ASL interpreting department. You love sign language.
In 2011, you'll go to Colorado and fall completely in love with every thing about the state. You'll even begin recruiting people to move there with you. But calm yourself because you won't be moving out there as soon as you think. And with that comes the harsh reality of where God will lead you. Straight to Augusta -- which is where I'm writing to you from.
That first year out of college will be a rough one! You won't find a job in your career, and you'll become a nanny -- something you've always joked about anyway. But you'll soon fall in love with the wonderful family you nanny for and you'll be thankful for their friendships.
You'll want to keep your distance from the people you meet in Augusta, for thinking that you'll be out of there in less than 11 months; don't do that. Those people will be there with you through thick and thin, and as much as you'll hate to admit it, on some levels, you'll need them.
Lastly, I just want to tell you to enjoy where you're at now. Learn to appreciate what do have instead of focusing on what life is not. I hope that you take more risks, accepting failure as a natural occurrence in life and not a death sentence. I hope that you would see relationships as needed and slowly begin to trust those around you-- they really do love you.
I think that most people would honestly tell you that life hasn't quite turned out the way they thought it would. For better or worse, life is what it is, and ever so slowly I'm learning to trust God with what he has gifted me.
What would you write to your past self?
twenty-something, daughter, sister, friend, follower of Christ, lover of all things media. welcome to the journey girl trying to find her place