I've spent a little over two years here in Augusta and have struggled with not knowing exactly what I want to do. I've been a full-time nanny, a part-time nanny and for the last year I've worked part-time as both a nanny and production assistant. Although I loved both of my jobs for various reasons, I still haven't truly happy my with career path.
I wanted to know where my life was going, I wanted the vacation days and benefits I thought came automatically with my four year degree. But I didn't get any of that; what I got was the reality that life doesn't always turn out the way you planned and the understanding that I could never have it all figured out.
So fast forward to the present and I've been offered a full-time job at the station! It's everything I thought I needed when I first moved to Augusta. But there was no celebration, no thanking of God and I avoided telling those closest to me for fear that there had been some sort of mistake. And then this quote came to mind.
"To name a thing is to manifest the meaning and value God gave it, to know it as coming from God and to know its place and function within the cosmos created by God. To name a thing, in other words, is to bless God for it and in it."- Alexander Schmemann
I can't remember where I read this quote, most likely in the heart of some book prescribed to me by a dear friend. But lately it's been running through my mind on repeat; at every moment of my day I find it popping back up. And for the sake of being honest, I have to confess that I've failed to give a name to many of the gifts God has granted me, this one in particular.
In my mind, to give name to this gift, to be excited and to share it with others was like putting my heart on my sleeve for all to see. I was in fear of loosing something I'd desired for years. And that's when I realized that my desire for a career had become a huge idol in my life; I wanted a career more than I wanted God.
So what did I do? I announced the good news! I told my parents, roommates, close friends and my Bible Study. All the while acknowledging that this is good gift from God, one that He provided in His own perfect timing. Just as Alexander said, "to name a thing is to bless God for it...." This is me naming a big gift!
What gift are you naming today?
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